Strange Times

Alright, I'm finally going to blog on a serious note. I don't do this often, usually I'm poking fun at something. More than likely I'll poke fun at this too, but I'd rather it start out on a serious note.

When I was a senior in high school I developed this weird habit of grinding my teeth. I'd ground my teeth a little when I was younger, but grew out of it. The stress of leaving high school brought this ancient habit to the suface. Really, I didn't notice the habit until one day I was clenching my jaw so tight trying NOT to grind my jaw that I couldn't really draw a breath. Trust me when I tell you it's the strangest feeling on the face of the planet.

Four years later those symptoms are recurring. I know it's stress. But damn it all if it doesn't hurt/scare the hell out of me. I'm going to end up with apnia if I'm not careful....or having to wear a mouthguard in my sleep.

But on to the more serious subject....the other night I had a terrifying dream...also centering around teeth.

I dreamt that one was loose, and that it just---all of a sudden---fell out. One loose tooth isn't so bad.

Suddenly finding yourself on the ground with ALL your teeth spilling from your mouth is a completely different thing.

THat was my dream....after having that first tooth fall out, all of them started to fall out...and not one by one.....they fell out in pairs....in sets, in groups....I think i lost more teeth in that dream than most normal adults have in a lifetime.

So I decided to do some research.

Dreams about teeth are generally about communication and power.

I found a different site that said dreams about losing teeth represent anxiety about the way you look. I suppose my subconcious could be saying something....a lot of people have been saying I've lost weight. But why would that make me anxious?

It also said that these dreams could be about anxiety of making a fool of yourself....well, I do have a blog called 'crayons taste good', how much more a fool can I be?

It also mentioned the power struggle....am I missing power in a situation? How about in rugby? I mean, I'm not in charge of the team any more....but I am one of the most senior members on the team.

I've been referring to myself as the old lady...I just feel like a hag.

Who knows...my mind has always been a little whack. But how weird is it that I'm grinding my teeth, I'm having dreams about losing those same teeth?

Oh well....I'm gonna go off to bed and try not to grind my teeth...I'll have to get ice to crunch tomorrow at Powell....that helped in high school....